Whisperer...

The closer we get, the distant we are...
Have you ever felt this way...?
Relationships are always complicated...
I am starting to see the true side of reality...and the ugliness of it...
Things are not always what we expect and hoped...
And most of the time we could not do anything about it...
The only option we have is to agree and accept...

Something i once see to be valuable and precious...
It is now something that is not worth fighting for...anymore...
I've began to realise why...
So let it be...
As i am sure i won't be missed...

Stretching my tightly grasp fists...
Letting go and throwing everything that I have learned to love...
and now to hate...
Whatever it is...
I'm glad that it is over...

Trapped...

My room is dark because the light bulb blew up just now...but that is not the topic today...

It has been weird lately…I don’t feel like myself…I don’t function like myself…it is just not right…

I have this feeling of being trapped…where I can’t get out…and everything is just buried inside my skull...

It’s draining me…

I really have no idea of how to describe my feelings now…pieces and bits here and there…everywhere…

Where do I begin?

I try to do something that cheers me up…but it seems like I don’t have any mood of doing about anything…

My life now is fixed…the same routine everyday…to be frank…it’s driving me mad…

Don’t give me wrong…I appreciate what I have…however there is a big BUT down the end of that sentence…

I kept visualizing my life 1 year from now…it will be much worst then what I am facing now…I’ll be working by then?

Forget about the boring routine 24-7 and 365days…that will be my life for the next 40 years?

I really want to do something that I like for my life…and I want to enjoy working…but…it’s not gonna happen, is it?

I don’t know…maybe it’s the hormone talking…haha…cause you know what is visiting soon…

Anyway…Have a great day guys…Cheers…=)