Tuesday, 4 September 2007

Trapped...

My room is dark because the light bulb blew up just now...but that is not the topic today...




It has been weird lately…I don’t feel like myself…I don’t function like myself…it is just not right…



I have this feeling of being trapped…where I can’t get out…and everything is just buried inside my skull...



It’s draining me…




I really have no idea of how to describe my feelings now…pieces and bits here and there…everywhere…



Where do I begin?



I try to do something that cheers me up…but it seems like I don’t have any mood of doing about anything…



My life now is fixed…the same routine everyday…to be frank…it’s driving me mad…



Don’t give me wrong…I appreciate what I have…however there is a big BUT down the end of that sentence…



I kept visualizing my life 1 year from now…it will be much worst then what I am facing now…I’ll be working by then?



Forget about the boring routine 24-7 and 365days…that will be my life for the next 40 years?



I really want to do something that I like for my life…and I want to enjoy working…but…it’s not gonna happen, is it?



I don’t know…maybe it’s the hormone talking…haha…cause you know what is visiting soon…



Anyway…Have a great day guys…Cheers…=)

5 comments:

lunaticgal said...

i think u just.....
.................... missing me
don worry im here neh! xD

lmt said...

Come on Jessie, don`t think like that. I’m sure that things are not so bad as they seem. It happens to me all the time to think that things are really bad but it isn’t like this.

Be yourself, relax, you will find the way through this. Go out with friends. Take some time to you. Don't worry.

I hope you can enjoy your work, and also understand that it’s not the only thing you’ll do.

I don’t know you, but I’m only giving you a piece of advise.

Best wishes,
lmt

http://lmtvoruz.blogspot.com/2007/08/sunscreen.html

Anonymous said...

lolx..jie..totally know wat u tryin to say...haha..yalorr..evrythin seem fixed..n sometime di also wonder, will it be the same for year after year,di aslo got tried to do smtg else,but it seem doesnt work,nahhhh....haha...same in the boat...haha...lolx..then how jie goin to see things around in jie de room worr...haha...torch light aimming there n here..haha...can play treasure hunt for a while..lolx...anyway..hope to chat with jie soon, di in desperate now..memorize there n here to get good grade..is a must to get a good grade...haizzz...jie ar..when wan go back to hell again arr..

lunaticgal said...

hey all... she is just missing me neh! xP

dun worry lah pig pig, im always here to cheer u up.. if we got the chance to chat ya ;)

Jessie said...

LOL...My Lunacow...really misss u laaa..wait me balik penang yaaa...hahaha